LoveJodyLynn | I Thought I Knew

Do you remember what it was like when you went to your first ropes course and had to do the trust fall?

I would step up to catch people left and right. That’s the fun part. That part makes you feel like a real 7th grade hero when you get to catch your friends and keep them from the concussion that is just below your weak little arms. But then comes the part when you’re supposed to fall.

Like that’s a joke right? It’s totally cool to be the one catching but it’s totally not cool to be the one falling.

So I cheated. I waited until the strongest people we had on that trip were the bases that bravely volunteered to go next. I was not about to wait for my weak armed friends to catch me! No way! I would let those strong high schoolers do it and walk away so proud that I trusted and fell and fully grasped that lesson.

For so long I thought I knew what it meant to trust, to rely, to be blinded to what was behind me and trust someone to have my back. I feel like my cheating adventure with a trust fall is a pretty accurate parallel to what I thought I had going with trusting God.

I thought I knew what it meant to trust Him, to rely on Him, to be blindsided by life and still know He was back there supporting me. And then I realized I had NO CLUE. Funny how that works right? You think you have a lesson down until you have a new opportunity to learn it and you’re left laughing and how much you still have to discover.

I’m learning in brand new ways what it means to trust Jesus. To say yes when fear would shout no. To forge ahead when it requires leaving things behind. To trust His love for me when my grace with myself is depleted. To pray boldly and trust that He will answer and help me understand those answers when they come. To trust that He has me exactly where I need to be and while that creates chaos and change, it is obedience and what is best. To trust that He has the answers where I have none.

Friends, don’t cheat on your trust falls this week. Fall back into grace. Fall back into trusting Jesus and let Him catch you. Feel that excitement, that moment of panicked mixed with adrenaline where you know if He doesn’t catch you, you will end up on the ground with a concussion. Lean into learning and growing. Because we think we know, but there is always more to learn.